Saturday 24th September 1:33 AM.

"Home early" he exclaimed. Of course I was home early. Ended up in the place I met her. Why go back to the gold mine when you've relieved it of all it's gold. She really was head and shoulders above the rabble there. Yeh I fucked things up for being a sad little wanker. Feeling so down right now. Why did I take her for granted? Why did I carry on wanking whilst with her. When walking him I felt like sticking a sharp knife through my heart. What use am I to nature? I cant spread my seed to another female to carry on the human race. Utter waste of  flesh I'm feeling right now.